Wives and Widows; or, The Broken Life
CHAPTER XXX.
MRS. DENNISON GATHERS WILD FLOWERS.
While I was lost in gloomy thoughts which those words had aroused, Jessie turned from my chair and walked slowly up and down the terrace, after a habit she had inherited from her father in any season of doubt or perplexity. At last she came softly back and leaned over me again.
"Aunt Matty," she whispered, timidly.
"Yes, dear."
"I have made up my mind."
I looked in her face, and its expression told me at once what her decision had been.
"You will go," I said.
"Yes, I will. It is right--it is my duty! If he were never to get well, I should reproach myself bitterly for not having granted his request."
"God bless you, Jessie! I knew you would not refuse."
"I am sure that my parents will have no objection."
"I can answer for that--the most scrupulous person could see no harm. Besides, Bosworth is a favorite both with your father and mother."
"Yes. Dear mamma will be so sorry to hear that he is ill--poor young man!"
"We will go to-morrow, Jessie. I dare say your father will accompany you."
"But I want you also, Aunt Matty; I should have no courage if you were not there."
"I will go, of course. You must speak to Mr. Lee about it--don't forget."
"I am not likely to; I will tell him this evening. But Aunt Matty--"
"Yes. Don't hesitate so. One would think you were afraid of your old friend. Not a cross one, am I?"
That made her laugh again; but the merriment died quickly. Her sensitive heart was so sorely troubled that her usual gayety was quite gone.
"I shall never fear you; but what I meant was that I don't wish Mrs. Dennison to know that I am going."
"She is not likely to learn it from me, Jessie."
"She would laugh at me--and this is no subject nor time for a jest."
"I should think not, indeed. The woman who could make a mockery of such feelings would be a libel on her sex."
"Ah! you must not be harsh."
"Only the old bitterness--don't mind it, Jessie. But we won't tell Mrs. Dennison."
At that moment I detected a rustle in the hall. My hearing was always singularly acute,--Jessie used to say that I was like a wild animal in that respect,--and I felt confident that I heard some one stealing away from behind us.
I started up at once, hurried into the hall, and met Cora, Mrs. Dennison's maid, face to face. She was running off--I could have sworn to that; but the moment she heard my step she turned toward me with her usual composure and pleasant smile.
"What do you want here, Cora?" I asked, more sharply than I often spoke to a dependant; for, of all people in the world, it is my habit to treat servants kindly. "Pray, what brings you into this hall?"
"I was just coming to look for my mistress, ma'am. Excuse me; I didn't know it was wrong."
"I have not said that it was," I answered, still convinced that she had been listening; "but our own domestics are never permitted to pass through this hall unless called."
"I will remember--I beg pardon."
"Mrs. Dennison is not here."
"Oh! excuse me--"
She stopped. I saw her curtsy, turned, and there stood Mr. Lee, looking at me gravely. He had heard my ill-natured tone, and could see the flush of anger on my face.
"What is the matter, Miss Hyde?" he asked, quietly enough; but the tone displeased me, and I replied with a good deal of sharpness,--
"I am not aware of anything, sir; Cora was searching for her mistress."
"That is right enough, I am sure."
"She is not here," I continued, feeling a savage pleasure in the words I spoke; "she is out in the woods with Mr. Lawrence."
Mr. Lee colored slightly, but managed to conceal his discomposure.
Cora hurried away after giving me a spiteful glance, and Jessie, who had heard my words, came into the hall.
"Mrs. Dennison told me that she should be busy all the morning in her room," she said, quickly.
"I can't help what she said, my dear; I only know that I saw her walking with Mr. Lawrence."
"Surely it is her privilege, if she feels disposed, to walk with any person," Mr. Lee said, laughing with a very bad grace, while Jessie looked much disturbed.
"I have no desire to interfere with the lady's movements," I said, my temper still in the ascendant; "but I see no necessity for saying one thing and doing another."
Mr. Lee appeared surprised at my outburst. I dare say it was not lady-like; but I am not made of stone, and my real feelings will peep out occasionally.
"I am afraid Mrs. Dennison would think you spoke harshly to her servant," he said. "I shouldn't like a guest in this house to be annoyed."
For the first time I was angry with Mr. Lee. I was not a dependant; I was not accustomed to anything but affection and respect in that house, and the reproof in his voice, added to my own feeling of self-dissatisfaction, made me quite furious.
"Sir," I said, "you have always requested us not to permit servants to enter this hall; when you wish to change any of your regulations, be good enough to inform me in advance."
I turned away before he could speak, and Jessie went to him, saying something in a low voice.
"Miss Hyde!" he called out, approaching me and extending his hand. "Why, dear friend, you are not angry with me? I would rather cut off this right hand than have that happen."
My anger evaporated at once; like a silly fool as I am, the tears gathered in my eyes. He shook my hand heartily, while Jessie hovered about us like an anxious bird.
"I really meant no harm," he began; but I would not hear a word.
"I am ashamed of myself," I said, "and that is the end of it; I am tired and cross."
"You are not well," he replied, kindly. "Jessie, make her go and lie down."
"She never will, papa."
She put her arm caressingly about my waist, and Mr. Lee stood holding my hand, petting me as if my words had been a matter of the greatest consequence. Suddenly Mrs. Dennison entered from the terrace, and exclaimed, with a gay laugh,--
"What a pretty scene! Are you acting a comedy, Mr. Lee? How well you do it!"
He dropped my hand in some confusion, and turned toward her.
"Better comedy than tragedy," he said.
"Oh, yes, a thousand times! But Miss Hyde's role seems to be a sentimental one--she looks very lugubrious!"
I longed to strike her full in her insolent mouth; but as that was impossible, I determined to pay her off for once in her own coin. A spirit of retaliation was roused within me that I had never before possessed.
"You seem gay enough to make amends," I said. "Did you and Mr. Lawrence have a pleasant walk?"
What a fool I was to think I could send a blow that would have any effect upon that piece of marble!
She laughed outright, and clapped her hands in childish exultation.
"She wants to accuse me of being a flirt!" she exclaimed; "Oh, you naughty Miss Hyde! I did meet Mr. Lawrence, but I had no idea of doing so when I went out. I think now I shall make a merit of my intention!"
"You might always do so, I am sure," said Mr. Lee, gallantly.
She held up a beautiful bouquet of wild flowers.
"I heard Mrs. Lee wish for some blossoms fresh from the woods last night," she said; "so I went to gather them."
Mr. Lee's face grew all sunshine at once; even Jessie was appeased, and, unseen by either, the widow shot me a quick glance of scorn.
"How kind it was of you!" Jessie said. "Mamma will be so much obliged!"
"I wanted to please her, darling Jessie," replied the widow. "But I must make one confession; will you grant me absolution, Mr. Lee?"
"I can safely do that in advance. I am sure you have no very terrible sin to reveal."
"Oh, I told a fib!" And she laughed archly. "I wanted to go all alone, so that dear Mrs. Lee would give me full credit for my thoughtfulness.-- You see how vain and selfish I am!--so I told Jessie that I was going to be occupied in my own room."
"I think when selfishness takes a form like this, it is a very valuable quality to possess," returned Mr. Lee.
Mrs. Dennison treated me to another flash from her scornful eyes, then added,--
"And while I was picking flowers, who should pass but Mr. Lawrence; so I made him stop. But I might as well have let him go on."
"Why so?" demanded Mr. Lee.
"Because he was very ungallant; did nothing but talk of Jessie, and never said a pretty thing to me."
Jessie blushed, but the smile on her lips showed that she was far from annoyed.
"So that is all my secret," continued Mrs. Dennison. "Now, we will take this unfortunate bouquet up to Mrs. Lee. Come, Jessie."
"May I go?" asked the gentleman.
"If you will be very good. But mind you do not tease for the flowers--we cannot spare a single one!"
"I promise."
"Then come with us."