Chapter 1
Transcribed from the 1909 Gay and Hancock edition by David Price, email [email protected]
THE KINGDOM OF LOVE _AND OTHER POEMS_
BY ELLA WHEELER WILCOX
GAY AND HANCOCK, LTD. 12 & 13, HENRIETTA STREET, STRAND LONDON 1909
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Contents:
The Kingdom Of Love Meg's Curse Solitude The Gossips Platonic Grandpa's Christmas After The Engagement A Holiday False Two Sinners The Phantom Ball Words And Thoughts Wanted--A Little Girl The Suicide "Now I Lay Me" The Messenger A Servian Legend Peek-A-Boo The Falling Of Thrones Her Last Letter The Princess's Finger-Nail A Baby In The House The Foolish Elm Robin's Mistake New Year Resolve What We Want Breaking The Day In Two The Rape Of The Mist The Two Glasses The Maniac What Is Flirtation? Husband And Wife How Does Love Speak? Reincarnation As You Go Through Life How Salvator Won The Watcher How Will It Be? Memory's River Love's Way A Man's Last Love The Lady And The Dame Confession A Married Coquette Forbidden Speech The Summer Girl The Ghost The Signboard A Man's Repentance Aristarchus Dell And I About May Vanity Fair The Giddy Girl A Girl's Autumn Reverie His Youth Under The Sheet A Pin The Coming Man
THE KINGDOM OF LOVE
In the dawn of the day when the sea and the earth Reflected the sunrise above, I set forth with a heart full of courage and mirth To seek for the Kingdom of Love. I asked of a Poet I met on the way Which cross-road would lead me aright; And he said "Follow me, and ere long you shall see Its glittering turrets of light."
And soon in the distance a city shone fair. "Look yonder," he said; "How it gleams!" But alas! for the hopes that were doomed to despair, It was only the "Kingdom of Dreams." Then the next man I asked was a gay Cavalier, And he said: "Follow me, follow me"; And with laughter and song we went speeding along By the shores of Life's beautiful sea.
Then we came to a valley more tropical far Than the wonderful vale of Cashmere, And I saw from a bower a face like a flower Smile out on the gay Cavalier; And he said: "We have come to humanity's goal: Here love and delight are intense." But alas and alas! for the hopes of my soul-- It was only the "Kingdom of Sense."
As I journeyed more slowly I met on the road A coach with retainers behind; And they said: "Follow me, for our Lady's abode Belongs in that realm, you will find." 'Twas a grand dame of fashion, a newly-made bride, I followed, encouraged and bold; But my hopes died away like the last gleams of day, For we came to the "Kingdom of Gold."
At the door of a cottage I asked a fair maid. "I have heard of that realm," she replied; "But my feet never roam from the 'Kingdom of Home,' So I know not the way," and she sighed. I looked on the cottage; how restful it seemed! And the maid was as fair as a dove. Great light glorified my soul as I cried: "Why, _Home_ is the 'Kingdom of Love'!"
MEG'S CURSE
The sun rode high in a cloudless sky Of a perfect summer morn. She stood and gazed out into the street, And wondered why she was born. On the topmost branch of a maple-tree That close by the window grew, A robin called to his mate enthralled: "I love but you, but you, but you."
A soft look came in her hardened face-- She had not wept for years; But the robin's trill, as some sounds will, Jarred open the door of tears. She thought of the old home far away; She heard the whr-r-r of the mill; She heard the turtle's wild, sweet call, And the wail of the whip-poor-will, whip-poor-will, whip-poor-will.
She saw again that dusty road Whence he came riding down; She smelled once more the flower she wore In the breast of her simple gown. Out on the new-mown meadow she heard Two blue-jays quarrel and fret, And the warning cry of a Phoebe bird "More wet, more wet, more wet."
With a blithe "Hello" to the men below Who were spreading the new-mown hay, The rider drew rein at her window-pane-- How it all came back to-day! How young she was, and how fair she was; What innocence crowned her brow! The future seemed fair, for Love was there-- And now--and now--and now.
In a dingy glass on the wall near by She gazed on her faded face. "Well, Meg, I declare, what a beauty you are! She sneered, "What an angel of grace! Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha! What a thing of beauty and grace!" She reached out her arms with a moaning sob: "Oh, if I could go back!" Then, swift and strange, came a sudden change; Her brow grew hard and black.
"A curse on the day and a curse on that man, And on all who are his," she cried; "May he starve and be cold, may he live to be old When all who loved him have died." Her wild voice frightened the robin away From the branch by the window-sill; And little he knew as away he flew, Of the memories stirred by his trill.
He called to his mate on the grass below, "Follow me," as he soared on high; And as mates have done since the world begun She followed, and asked not why. The dingy room seemed curtained with gloom; Meg shivered with nameless dread. The ghost of her youth and her murdered truth Seemed risen up from the dead.
She hurried out into the noisy street, For the silence made her afraid; To flee from thought was all she sought, She cared not whither she strayed. Still on she pressed in her wild unrest Up avenues skirting the park, Where fashion's throng moved gayly along In Vanity Fair--when hark!
A clatter of hoofs down the stony street, The snort of a frightened horse That was running wild, and a laughing child At play in its very course. With one swift glance Meg saw it all. "_His_ child--my God! _his_ child!" She cried aloud, as she rushed through the crowd Like one grown suddenly wild.
There, almost under the iron feet, Hemmed in by a passing cart, Stood the baby boy--the pride and joy Of the man who had broken her heart. Past swooning women and shouting men She fled like a flash of light; With her slender arm she gathered from harm The form of the laughing sprite.
The death-shod feet of the mad horse beat Her down on the pavings grey; But the baby laughed out with a merry shout, And thought it splendid play. He pulled her gown and called to her: "Say, Dit up and do dat some more, Das jus' ze way my papa play Wiz me on ze nursery floor."
When the frightened father reached the scene, His boy looked up and smiled From the stiffening fold of the arm, death-cold, Of Meg, who had died for his child. Oh! idle words are a woman's curse Who loves as woman can; For put to the test, she will bare her breast And die for the sake of the man.
SOLITUDE
Laugh, and the world laughs with you: Weep, and you weep alone; For the sad old earth Must borrow its mirth, It has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer; Sigh, it is lost on the air; The echoes bound To a joyful sound, But shrink from voicing care.
Rejoice, and men will seek you; Grieve, and they turn and go; They want full measure Of all your pleasure, But they do not want your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many; Be sad, and you lose them all; There are none to decline Your nectared wine, But alone you must drink life's gall.
Feast, and your halls are crowded; Fast, and the world goes by; Succeed and give, And it helps you live, But it cannot help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure For a long and lordly train; But one by one We must all file on Through the narrow aisles of pain.
THE GOSSIPS
A rose in my garden, the sweetest and fairest, Was hanging her head through the long golden hours; And early one morning I saw her tears falling, And heard a low gossiping talk in the bowers. The yellow Nasturtium, a spinster all faded, Was telling a Lily what ailed the poor Rose: "That wild roving Bee who was hanging about her, Has jilted her squarely, as every one knows.
"I knew when he came, with his singing and sighing, His airs and his speeches so fine and so sweet, Just how it would end; but no one would believe me, For all were quite ready to fall at his feet." "Indeed, you are wrong," said the Lily-belle proudly, "I cared nothing for him; he called on me once, And would have come often, no doubt, if I'd asked him, But though he was handsome, I thought him a dunce."
"Now, now, that's not true," cried the tall Oleander. "He has travelled and seen every flower that grows; And one who has supped in the garden of princes, We all might have known would not we with the Rose." "But wasn't she proud when he showed her attention? And she let him caress her," said sly Mignonette; "And I used to see it and blush for her folly. The silly thing thinks he will come to her yet."
"I thought he was splendid," said pretty pert Larkspur, "So dark, and so grand with that gay cloak of gold; But he tried once to kiss me, the impudent fellow! And I got offended; I thought him too bold." "Oh, fie!" laughed the Almond, "that does for a story. Though I hang down my head, yet I see all that goes; And I saw you reach out trying hard to detain him, But he just tapped your cheek and flew by to the Rose.
"He cared nothing for her; he only was flirting To while away time, as I very well knew; So I turned a cold shoulder on all his advances, Because I was certain his heart was untrue." "The Rose is served right for her folly in trusting An oily-tongued stranger," quoth proud Columbine. "I knew what he was, and thought once I would warn her, But of course the affair was no business of mine."
"Oh, well," cried the Peony, shrugging her shoulders, "I saw all along that the Bee was a flirt; But the Rose has been always so praised and so petted, I thought a good lesson would do her no hurt." Just then came the sound of a love-song sung sweetly, I saw my proud Rose lifting up her bowed head; And the talk of the gossips was hushed in a moment, And the flowers all listened to hear what was said.
And the dark, handsome Bee, with his cloak o'er his shoulder, Came swift through the sunlight and kissed the sad Rose, And whispered: "My darling, I've roved the world over, And you are the loveliest flower that grows."
PLATONIC
I knew it the first of the summer, I knew it the same at the end, That you and your love were plighted, But couldn't you be my friend? Couldn't we sit in the twilight, Couldn't we walk on the shore With only a pleasant friendship To bind us, and nothing more?
There was not a word of folly Spoken between us two, Though we lingered oft in the garden Till the roses were wet with dew. We touched on a thousand subjects-- The moon and the worlds above,-- And our talk was tinctured with science, And everything else, save love.
A wholly Platonic friendship You said I had proven to you Could bind a man and a woman The whole long season through, With never a thought of flirting, Though both were in their youth What would you have said, my lady, If you had known the truth!
What would you have done, I wonder, Had I gone on my knees to you And told you my passionate story, There in the dusk and the dew? My burning, burdensome story, Hidden and hushed so long-- My story of hopeless loving-- Say, would you have thought it wrong?
But I fought with my heart and conquered, I hid my wound from sight; You were going away in the morning, And I said a calm good-night. But now when I sit in the twilight, Or when I walk by the sea That friendship, quite Platonic, Comes surging over me.
And a passionate longing fills me For the roses, the dusk, the dew; For the beautiful summer vanished, For the moonlight walks--and _you_.
GRANDPA'S CHRISTMAS
In his great cushioned chair by the fender An old man sits dreaming to-night, His withered hands, licked by the tender Warm rays of the red anthracite, Are folded before him, all listless; His dim eyes are fixed on the blaze, While over him sweeps the resistless Flood-tide of old days.
He hears not the mirth in the hallway, He hears not the sounds of good cheer, That through the old homestead ring alway In the glad Christmas-time of the year. He heeds not the chime of sweet voices As the last gifts are hung on the tree. In a long-vanished day he rejoices-- In his lost Used-to-be.
He has gone back across dead Decembers To his childhood's fair land of delight; And his mother's sweet smile he remembers, As he hangs up his stocking at night. He remembers the dream-haunted slumber All broken and restless because Of the visions that came without number Of dear Santa Claus.
Again, in his manhood's beginning, He sees himself thrown on the world, And into the vortex of sinning By Pleasure's strong arms he is hurled. He hears the sweet Christmas bells ringing, "Repent ye, repent ye, and pray"; But he joins with his comrades in singing A bacchanal lay.
Again he stands under the holly With a blushing face lifted to his For love has been stronger than folly, And has turned him from vice unto bliss; And the whole world is lit with new glory As the sweet vows are uttered again, While the Christmas bells tell the old story Of peace unto men.
Again, with his little brood 'round him, He sits by the fair mother-wife; He knows that the angels have crowned him With the truest, best riches of life; And the hearts of the children, untroubled, Are filled with the gay Christmas-tide; And the gifts for sweet Maudie are doubled, Tis her birthday, beside.
Again,--ah, dear Jesus, have pity-- He finds in the chill, waning day, That one has come home from the city-- Frail Maudie, whom love led astray. She lies with her babe on her bosom-- Half-hid by the snow's fleecy spread; A bud and a poor trampled blossom-- And both are quite dead.
So fair and so fragile! just twenty-- How mocking the bells sound to-night! She starved in this great land of plenty, When she tried to grope back to the light. Christ. are Thy disciples inhuman, Or only for _men_ hast Thou died? No mercy is shown to a woman Who once steps aside.
Again he leans over the shrouded Still form of the mother and wife; Very lonely the way seems, and clouded, As he looks down the vista of life. With the sweet Christmas chimes there is blended The knell for a life that is done, And he knows that his joys are all ended And his waiting begun.
So long have the years been, so lonely, As he counts them by Christmases gone. "I am homesick," he murmurs; "if only The Angel would lead the way on. I am cold, in this chill winter weather; Why, Maudie, dear, where have you been? And you, too, sweet wife--and together-- O Christ, let me in"
The children ran in from the hallway, "Were you calling us, grandpa?" they said. Then shrank, with that fear that comes alway When young eyes look their first on the dead. The freedom so longed for is given. The children speak low and draw near: "Dear grandpa keeps Christmas in Heaven With grandma, this year."
AFTER THE ENGAGEMENT
Well, Mabel, 'tis over and ended-- The ball I wrote was to be; And oh! it was perfectly splendid-- If you _could_ have been here to see. I've a thousand things to write you That I know you are wanting to hear, And one, that is sure to delight you-- I am wearing Joe's diamond, my dear!
Yes, mamma is quite ecstatic That I am engaged to Joe; She thinks I am rather erratic, And feared that I might say "No." But, Mabel, I'm twenty-seven (Though nobody _dreams_ it, dear), And a fortune like Joe's isn't given To lay at one's feet each year.
You know my old fancy for Harry-- Or, at least, I am certain you guessed That it took all my sense not to marry And go with that fellow out west. But that was my very first season-- And Harry was poor as could be, And mamma's good practical reason Took all the romance out of me.
She whisked me off over the ocean, And had me presented at court, And got me all out of the notion That ranch life out west was my forte. Of course I have never repented-- I'm not such a goose of a thing; But after I had consented To Joe--and he gave me the ring--
I felt such a queer sensation. I seemed to go into a trance, Away from the music's pulsation, Away from the lights and the dance. And the wind o'er the wild prairie Seemed blowing strong and free, And it seemed not Joe, but Harry Who was standing there close to me.
And the funniest feverish feeling Went up from my feet to my head, With little chills after it stealing-- And my hands got as numb as the dead. A moment, and then it was over: The diamond blazed up in my eyes, And I saw in the face of my lover A questioning, strange surprise.
Maybe 'twas the scent of the flowers, That heavy with fragrance bloomed near, But I didn't feel natural for hours; It was odd now, wasn't it, dear? Write soon to your fortunate Clara, Who has carried the prize away, And say you'll come on when I marry,-- I think it will happen in May.
A HOLIDAY
THE WIFE
The house is like a garden, The children are the flowers, The gardener should come methinks And walk among his bowers, Oh! lock the door on worry And shut your cares away, Not time of year, but love and cheer, Will make a holiday.
THE HUSBAND
Impossible! You women do not know The toil it takes to make a business grow. I cannot join you until very late, So hurry home, nor let the dinner wait.
THE WIFE
The feast will be like _Hamlet_ Without a Hamlet part: The home is but a house, dear, Till you supply the heart. The Xmas gift I long for You need not toil to buy; Oh! give me back one thing I lack-- The love-light in your eye.
THE HUSBAND
Of course I love you, and the children too Be sensible, my dear, it is for you I work so hard to make my business pay. There, now, run home, enjoy your holiday.
THE WIFE (_turning_)
He does not mean to wound me, I know his heart is kind. Alas! that man can love us And be so blind, so blind. A little time for pleasure, A little time for play; A word to prove the life of love And frighten Care away! Tho' poor my lot in some small cot _That_ were a holiday.
THE HUSBAND (_musing_)
She has not meant to wound me, nor to vex-- Zounds! but 'tis difficult to please the sex. I've housed and gowned her like a very queen Yet there she goes, with discontented mien. I gave her diamonds only yesterday: Some women are like that, do what you may.
FALSE
False! Good God, I am dreaming! No, no, it never can be-- You who are so true in seeming, You, false to your vows and me? My wife and my fair boy's mother The star of my life--my queen-- To yield herself to another Like some light Magdalene!
Proofs! what are proofs--I defy them! They never can shake my trust; If you look in my face and deny them I will trample them into the dust. For whenever I read of the glory Of the realms of Paradise, I sought for the truth of the story And found it in your sweet eyes.
Why, you are the shy young creature I wooed in her maiden grace; There was purity in each feature, And my heaven I found in your face. And, "not only married but mated," I would say in my pride and joy; And our hopes were all consummated When the angels gave us our boy.
Now you could not blot that beginning So beautiful, pure and true, With a record of wicked sinning As a common woman might do. Look up in your old frank fashion, With your smile so free from art; And say that no guilty passion Has ever crept into your heart.
How pallid you are, and you tremble! You are hiding your face from view! "Tho' a sinner, you cannot dissemble"-- My God! then the tale is true? True, and the sun above us Shines on in the summer skies? And men say the angels love us, And that God is good and wise.
Yet he lets a wanton thing like you Ruin my home and my name! Get out of my sight or I strike you Dead in your shameless shame! No, no, I was wild, I was brutal; I would not take your life, For the efforts of death would be futile To wipe out the sin of a wife. Wife--why, that word has seemed sainted I uttered it like a prayer; And now to think it is tainted-- Christ! how much we can bear!
"Slay you!" my boy's stained mother-- Nay, that would not punish, or save; A soul that has outraged another Finds no sudden peace in the grave. I will leave you here to _remember_ The Eden that was your own, While on toward my life's December I walk in the dark alone.
TWO SINNERS
There was a man, it was said one time, Who went astray in his youthful prime. Can the brain keep cool and the heart keep quiet When the blood is a river that's running riot? And boys will be boys, the old folks say, And a man is the better who's had his day
The sinner reformed; and the preacher told Of the prodigal son who came back to the fold. And Christian people threw open the door, With a warmer welcome than ever before. Wealth and honour were his to command, And a spotless woman gave him her hand. And the world strewed their pathway with blossoms abloom, Crying, "God bless ladye, and God bless groom!"
There was a maiden who went astray, In the golden dawn of her life's young day. She had more passion and heart than head, And she followed blindly where fond Love led. And Love unchecked is a dangerous guide To wander at will by a fair girl's side.
The woman repented and turned from sin, But no door opened to let her in. The preacher prayed that she might be forgiven, But told her to look for mercy--in heaven. For this is the law of the earth, we know: That the woman is stoned, while the man may go.
A brave man wedded her after all, But the world said, frowning, "We shall not call."
THE PHANTOM BALL
You remember the hall on the corner? To-night as I walked down street I heard the sound of music, And the rhythmic beat and beat, In time to the pulsing measure Of lightly tripping feet.
And I turned and entered the doorway-- It was years since I had been there-- Years, and life seemed altered: Pleasure had changed to care. But again I was hearing the music And watching the dancers fair.
And then, as I stood and listened, The music lost its glee; And instead of the merry waltzers There were ghosts of the Used-to-be-- Ghosts of the pleasure-seekers Who once had danced with me.
Oh, 'twas a ghastly picture! Oh, 'twas a gruesome crowd! Each bearing a skull on his shoulder, Each trailing a long white shroud, As they whirled in the dance together, And the music shrieked aloud.
As they danced, their dry bones rattled Like shutters in a blast; And they stared from eyeless sockets On me as they circled past; And the music that kept them whirling Was a funeral dirge played fast.
Some of them wore their face-cloths, Others were rotted away. Some had mould on their garments, And some seemed dead but a day. Corpses all, but I knew them As friends, once blithe and gay.
Beauty and strength and manhood-- And this was the end of it all: Nothing but phantoms whirling In a ghastly skeleton ball. But the music ceased--and they vanished, And I came away from the hall.
WORDS AND THOUGHTS
He said as he sat in her theatre box Between the acts, "What beastly weather! How like a parrot the lover talks-- And the lady is tame, and the villain stalks-- I hope they finally die together."
He thought--"_You are fair as the dawn's first ray_; _I know the angels keep guard above you_. _And so I chatter of weather_, _and play_, _While all the time I am mad to say_, _I love you_, _love you_, _love you_."