PART III: MARRIAGE

Zeppelin raid and influenza, 222 Living in the country, 223, 227, 228 Reads his doctor's certificate after visit to recruiting-office, 225, 238 Self-disgust, 223, 224, 225, 247, 250 (_nude_), 267 Mental agony, 226, 227 Conversations: with R., 229 with Scarabees, 230, 239, 243 Halcyon days, 233, 235, 238 A natural idiot climbs a stile on uplands, 240 Tension, 250, 252 The War, 237 (_Jutland_), 242, 247, 248, 249 Another nervous breakdown, 253 How E. knew all the time, 255, 256 Self-compassion, 251, 304 Home ill, 257 ("_in the doldrums_"), 259, 265 Returns to work, 278 Ill again, 285 From an invalid's view-point, 292, 293 (_by his bedroom window_) Post-mortem affairs, 291 Resigns appointment, 294, 299 Self-consciousness and self-dramatization, 255, 265, 267 A badly articulated skeleton, 274 Cold weather in January, 276, 277, 278 On Death, 275, 283, 286, 291 His phosphorescent Journals, 291 Morphia and laudanum, 280, 300 Great misery, 303, 305

INDEX OF NAMES

A----, 21, 51, 82, 97, 98, 121, 158, 206, 285, 298 _"Academy," The_, 23, 24, 106, 296 _Adventure in Search of Health, An_, 260 A Kempis, Thomas, 28 _Albert Hall, Hag, The_, 147 _Ambition_, 29 "_American Naturalist_," 295 _American Neighbour, An_, 251 _Apologia pro mea vita_, 145 _Archæopteryx and Mudflats_, 289 _Aristotle's Lantern_, 19 _At a Public Dinner_, 175 _At C----, a tiny little village by the Sea in N_----, 65 _At Home_, 82 _At the Albert Hall_, 127 Austen, Jane, 268 _Average Day, An_, 172

B----, 102, 107, 114, 118, 119 _Baby-Girl, A_, 263 _Bad Listener, A_, 246 Baring, Maurice, 188 _Bathing_, 60 Baudelaire, 60, 62, 173, 183, 197, 198, 258 Beerbohm, Max, 269 _Beethoven's Fifth Symphony_, 161, 186 Benson, A.C., 249 Bergson, 47, 55, 78, 183, 198 Berkeley, 275 Blind Mathilde, 139 Boeltzig, R., 103 Bradford, Sir John Rose, 54 Brieux, 162 _"Brilliant Career," A_, 62 British Museum, 26, 29, 49, 57, 59, 61, 79, 94, 132, 174, 178, 225, 274, 282, 283, 295 _British Museum Reading Room, The_, 100 Brooke, Rupert, 266 Browne, Sir Thomas, 146, 183, 238 Buchanan, Robert, 251 Bunyan, 166 Burke, 2 Burlington House, 29 Burton, 125 Butler, Samuel, 143, 171, 185, 291 _Buxom Rogue in Earthenware, A_, 216 _By the Sea_, 61 Byron, 266

_Camping out at S---- Sands_, 91 Carlyle, 120, 171 Cassell's _Natural History_, 13 _Chalcidoidea, The_, 221 _Character, A_, 39 _Chinese Lanterns_, 280 _Chipples_, 220 _Chopin_, 157 _Clever Young Man, The_, 207 Coleridge, 266 _Confession, A_, 74 Conrad, 50, 223 _Crowd Fever_, 278 _Cynicism_, 288

D----, 69, 180 Darwin, 6, 55 _Day in Autumn, A_, 51 _Death_, 33, 84, 275, 286 Debussy, 161, 162, 167 De Goncourt, 227, 228 De Guérin, 200, 277, 282 De Maupassant, Guy, 63, 266 _Depression_, 89 De Quincey, 10, 42, 126, 187, 196, 286 Devonshire Club, 32 _Dinosaurs_, 129 Disraeli, 258 _Dr. Spurgeon_, 90 Dostoieffsky, 132, 163, 167, 187 Duke, Mr., K.C., 17

E----, 68, 78, 79, 107, 171, 191, 192, 193, 194, 201, 209, 220, 223, 226, 228, 233, 235, 236, 238, 240, 251, 253, 254, 255, 256, 257, 259, 260, 261, 263, 274, 277, 283, 291, 292, 294, 298, 299, 300, 301, 302, 303, 304 _Early Boughies_, 66 _Empress of Ireland_, 127 _English Review_, 101, 105, 142 _Equilibrium Restored_, 245 _Entomological Society, The_, 110

Father, 34, 50, 51, 137 _Finis_, 225, 285 _Fire Bogey, The_, 170 _Foolish Bird, A_, 118 "_Fortnightly_," 61 "_Forum_," 296 Foster, Sir Michael, 209 _From one Maiden Lady to another (authentic)_, 37

G----, 78, 197, 215 _Gardening_,83 Gaskel, 23, 55 Gibbon, 129, 258 _Gibbon's Autobiography_, 268 Gissing, George, 32 Goethe, 146 _Graph of Temperament, The,_ 287

H----, 7, 8, 13, 38, 51, 60, 75, 76, 77, 78, 79, 80, 82, 83, 89, 92, 94, 114, 180, 196, 206, 218, 285 Haeckel, 23, 300 _Harmsworth Encyclopædia_, 294 Harmsworth _Self-Educator_, 10 Hardy, 24, 282 _Hardy's Poetry_, 264 _Hearing Beethoven_, 172 Hegel, 146 Henley, 208, 209 Herdman, Prof., 46 Hervey, 170 Horton, Max Kennedy, 141 _Housefly Problem, The_--1916, 231 _Humble Confession, A_, 115 Huxley, 37, 163

"_Illustrated London News_," 53 _In a Crowd_, 184 _In London_, 59 _In London again_, 93, 99

J----, 78, 263 James, 163, 166 Jefferies, Richard, 44, 233 _Jeremiad, A_, 294 Johnson, 2, 10, 180, 181, 196, 230 _Johnson_ v. _Yves Delage_, 181 _Jolt, A_, 247 Jonson, Ben, 171 Joubert, 291 _Justifiable Mendacity_, 52

K----, 80, 99, 138, 225 Kant, 257 Keats, 10, 145, 146, 258

L----, 1, 3, 4, 43, 98 Lacépède, 146 Lamb, Charles, 13, 120, 227, 230 Landor, W.S., 265 La Rochefoucauld, 31 _Leap-frog_, 302 Lodge, Sir Oliver, 286 _Liebestod_, 302 _Lice or "Creeping Ferlies_," 213 _Looking for Lice at the Zoo_, 177 Lubbock, 7 _Ludo_, 104 _Lupus_, 125 _Luxury of Lunacy, The_, 195

M----, 12, 20, 62, 69, 70, 80, 81, 96, 105, 106, 134, 140, 156, 222, 225, 226, 255, 250, 259, 260 Macaulay, 30 Maeterlinck, 42 Malpighi, 171 _Marie Bashkirtseff_, 139, 163, 175, 238 Mary, 8, 23, 28 _Masefield's "Gallipoli,"_ 269 _Measuring Lice_, 125 Moffat, 161 Moore, Tom, 173 _More Irony_, 105 Mosenthal, 13 Mother, 34, 50, 51, 59, 93, 95, 97, 137 Mozart, 161 _My Gastrocnemius_, 208 _My Nightmare_, 105 _My Sense of Touch_, 91

N----, 29, 78, 121, 122, 257, 261 _Naming Cockroaches_, 184 Natural History Museum, 6, 54 _New Pile in the Pier, A_, 88 Newton, 171 Nietzsche, 137, 156

_Old Diaries_, 44 _Omniscience_, 239 _On Lighting Chloe's Cigarette,_ 119 _On Lundy Island_, 21 _On the N. Downs_, 68 _Our Simian Ancestry_, 27

P----, 76, 78, 79, 80 _Pachmann_, 234 Pascal, 293 _Petticoat Lane_, 163 Piers Plowman, 221 Plymouth Marine Laboratory, 29, 32,47, 79 _Pool: a Retrospect, The_, 189 _Potted Novel, A_, 284 _Prawning_, 17 _Preparing a Snake's Skull_, 50 "_Punch_," 296 _Punch and Judy Show, The,_ 180

R----, 81, 99, 101, 104, 107, 115, 119, 120, 122, 123, 124, 127, 128, 130, 131, 132, 133, 134, 135, 136, 140, 141, 148, 151, 154, 166, 167, 169, 172, 173, 174, 175, 182, 197, 205, 207, 208, 209, 215, 2l6, 217, 227, 228, 229, 230, 239, 240, 241, 295, 299, 303 _Raemakers_, 186 _Railway Travel_, 41 _Raleigh, Sir Walter_, 129, 196 _Reading Nietzsche_, 156 _Reminiscences_, 270 _Renunciation_, 85 _Resignation_, 141 _Restlessness of the Sea, The,_ 90 Richepin, 57 Richelieu, Cardinal, 155 _Rigor Bordis_, 148 _Rodin_, 103, 157, 160 Romney, 169 Rousseau, 63, 181, 268 Ruskin, 30, 190, 208, 216

S----, 1, 3 Saintsbury, Prof. Geo., 126 Sainte-Beuve, 200, 277 Schäfer, 110 Schopenhauer, 34 Schubert, 173, 174 _Scots Fir, A_, 111 Scott, 75, 153 _Service_, 264 Shakespeare, 264 Shaw, Bernard, 59, 150, 166, 249 Shelley, 196, 266, 293 _Sir Henry Wood conducting_, 159 _Sleep_, 206 _Small Red Viper, A_, 16 Smiles, Samuel, 14 Smollett, 291 _Sollas's "Ancient Hunters,"_ 72 Southey, 16 Spallanzani, 47, 71, 112 Spinoza, 16 _Spring in the Woods_, 15 _Staying by the Sea_, 43 _Stagnancy_, 84 _Stagnant Day, A_, 111 Stevenson, 63, 106, 161, 208, 209 _Stockbroker, The_, 252 _Strangeness of my Life, The,_ 281 Strindberg, 139 Susan, 254 _Sunset in Kensington Gardens_, 130 Swift, 230 Swinburne, 61, 290

T----, 14, 171, 246

"_T.P.'s Weekly_," 41 Tennyson, 154, 264 _Test for True Love, The_, 157 _Test of Happiness, A_, 185 Thompson, Francis, 266 Thoreau, 181 _Too Late_, 144 _Tschaikovsky_, 161, 162 Turner, J.M.W., 154, 167 _Two Adventures_, 212 _Two Months' Sick Leave_, 80 _Two People I hate in particular,_ 186 _Two Young Men Talking_, 60

_Une Caractère_, 53

Verlaine, 60 Villon, Francois, 173 Voltaire, 63, 163

Wagner, 166 Wallace, 23, 37 Walton, Isaac, 8 Wasmann, Father, 47 Waterton, 159 Wells, H.G., 291 Whistler, 222 White, Gilbert, 159 Whitman, Walt, 189, 253 Wilde, Oscar, 76, 143, 152, 175, 258 _Windy Ash_,35 _Wiedersheim_, 106, 145, 159, 257 _Woman and a Child, A_, 146 Wood, Sir Henry, 157, 159, 172, 201 Woodward, Dr. Smith, 145

_Yellow Cat, A_, 241

Zola, 17