Chapter 8

Sleeping chamber in the house of the wealthy MERCHANT. To the rear an alcove with dark curtains. To the left a door, to the right a small door leading into the garden, and a window. Candles.

Enter the MERCHANT and his old Servant, BAHRAM.

MERCHANT. Speak, Bahram, gav'st thou heed unto my bride?

SERVANT. Heed, in what sense!

MERCHANT. She is not cheerful, Bahram.

SERVANT. She is a serious girl. And 'tis a moment That sobers e'en the flightiest, remember.

MERCHANT. Not she alone: the more I bade them kindle Lights upon lights, the heavier hung a cloud About this wedding-feast. They smiled like masks, And I could catch the dark or pitying glances They flung to one another; and her father Would oft subside into a dark reflection, From which he roused himself with laughter forced, Unnatural.

SERVANT. My Lord, our common clay Endureth none too well the quiet splendor Of hours like these. We are but little used To aught but dragging through our daily round Of littleness. And on such high occasions We feel the quiet opening of a portal From which an unfamiliar, icy breath Our spirit chills, and warns us of the grave. As in a glass we then behold our own Forgotten likeness come into our vision, And easier 'twere to weep than to be merry.

MERCHANT. She tasted not a morsel that thou placed Before her.

SERVANT. Lord, her modest maidenhood Was like a noose about her throat; but yet She ate some of the fruit.

MERCHANT. Yes, one small seed, I noticed that, 'twas a pomegranate seed.

SERVANT. Then too she suddenly bethought herself That wine, a blood-red flame in sparkling crystal, Before her stood, and raised the splendid goblet And drank as with a sudden firm resolve The half of it, so that the color flooded Her cheeks, and deep she sighed as with relief.

MERCHANT. Methinks that was no happy resolution. So acts the man who would deceive himself, And veils his glance, because the road affrights him.

SERVAMT. Vain torments these: this is but women's way.

MERCHANT.(looks about the room, smiles). A mirror, too, I see thou hast provided.

SERVAMT. Thine own command, the mirror is thy mother's, Brought hither from her chamber with the rest. And thou thyself didst bid me, just this one ...

MERCHANT. What, did I so? It was a moment, then, When I was shrewder than I am just now. Yes, yes, a youthful bride must have a mirror.

SERVANT. Now I will go to fetch your mother's goblet And bring the cooling evening drink.

MERCHANT. Ah yes. Go, my good Bahram, fetch the evening drink. [Exit BAHRAM.] Thou mirror of my mother, dwells no glimmer In thee of her sweet pallid smile, to rise As from the dewy mirror of a well-spring? Her smile, the faintest, loveliest I have known, Was like the flutter of a tiny birdling, That sleeps its last upon the hollowed hand. [Stands before the mirror.] No, naught but glass. Too long it empty stood. Only a face that does not smile--my own. My Self, beheld with my own eyes, so vacant As if one glass but mirrored forth another, Unconscious.--Oh for higher vision yet, For but one moment infinitely brief, To see how stands upon _her_ spirit's mirror My image! Is't an old man she beholds? Am I as young as oft I deem myself, When in the silent night I lie and listen To hear my blood surge through its winding course? Is it not being young, to have so little Of rigidness or hardness in my nature? I feel as if my spirit, nursed and reared On nourishment so dreamlike, bloodless, thin, Were youthful still. How else should visit me This faltering feeling, just as in my boyhood, This strange uneasiness of happiness, As if 'twould slip each moment from my hands And fade like shadows? Can the old feel this? No, old men take the world for something hard And dreamless; what their fingers grasp and hold, They hold. While _I_ am even now a-quiver With all this moment brings; no youthful monarch Were more intoxicated, when the breezes Should waft to him that cryptic word "possession." [He nears the window.] Ah, lovely stars, are ye out there as ever? From out of this unstable mortal body To look upon your courses in your whirling Eternal orbits--that has been the food That bore with ease my years, until I thought I scarcely felt my feet upon the earth. And have I really withered, while my eyes Clung to yon golden suns, that do not wither? And have I learned of all the quiet plants, And marked their parts and understood their lives, And how they differ when upon the mountains, Or when by running streams we find them growing,-- Almost a new creation, yet at bottom A single species; and with confidence Could say, this one does well, its food is pure, And lightly bears the burden of its leaves, But this through worthless soil and sultry vapors Has thickened stems, and bloated, swollen leaves ... And more ... and of myself I can know nothing, And heavy scales are crusted on my eyes, Impeding judgment ... [He hastily steps before the mirror again.] Soulless tool! Not like some books and men caught unawares: Thou never canst reveal the hidden truth As in a lightning flash.

SERVANT (returning). My master.

MERCHANT. Well?

SERVANT. The guests depart. The father of thy bride And others have been asking after thee.

MERCHANT. And what of her?

SERVANT. She takes leave of her parents.

[MERCHANT stands a moment with staring eyes, then goes out at the door to the left with long strides. SERVANT follows him. The stage remains empty for a short time. Then the MERCHANT reenters, hearing a candelabrum which he places on the table beside the evening drink. SOBEIDE enters behind him, led by her father and mother. All stop in the centre of the room, somewhat to the left, the MERCHANT slightly removed from the rest. SOBEIDE gently releases herself. Her veil hangs down behind her. She wears a string of pearls in her hair, a larger one about her neck.]

FATHER. From much in life I have been forced to part. This is the hardest. My beloved daughter, This is the day which I began to dread When still I saw thee smiling in thy cradle, And which has been my nightmare o'er and o'er. (To the MERCHANT.) Forgive me. She is more to me than child. I give thee that for which I have no name, For every name comprises but a part-- But she was everything to me!

SOBEIDE. Dear father, My mother will be with thee.

MOTHER (gently). Cross him not: He is quite right to overlook his wife. I have become a part of his own being, What strikes me, strikes him too; but what I do Affects him only as when right and left Of his own body meet. Meanwhile, however, The soul remains through all its days a nursling, And reaches out for breasts more full of life, Farewell. Be no worse helpmeet than I was, And mayst thou be as happy too. This word Embraces all.

SOBEIDE. Embrace--that is the word; Till now my fate was in your own embraced, But now the life of this man standing here Swings wide its gates, and in this single moment I breathe for once the blessed air of freedom: No longer yours, and still not his as yet. I beg you, go; for this unwonted thing, As new to me as wine, has greater power, And makes me view my life and his and yours With other eyes than were perhaps befitting. (With a forced smile.) I beg you, look not in such wonderment: Such notions oft go flitting through my head, Nor dream nor yet reality. Ye know, As child I was much worse. And then the dance Which I invented, is't not such a thing: Wherein from torchlight and the black of night I made myself a shifting, drifting palace, From which I then emerged, as do the queens Of fire and ocean in the fairy-tales. [The MOTHER has meanwhile thrown the FATHER a glance and has noiselessly gone to the door. Noiselessly the FATHER has followed her. Now they stand with clasped hands in the doorway, to vanish the next moment.] Ye go so softly? What? And are ye gone? [She turns and stands silent, her eyes cast down.]

MERCHANT (caresses her with a long look, then goes to the rear, but stops again irresolute). Wilt thou not lay aside thy veil? [SOBEIDE starts, looks about her absent-mindedly.]

MERCHANT (points to the glass). 'Tis yonder. [SOBEIDE takes no step, loosens mechanically the veil from her hair.]

MERCHANT. Here--in thy house--and just at first perhaps Thou mayst lack much. This house, since mother's death, Has grown disused to serve a woman's needs. And our utensils here do not display The splendor and magnificence in which I fain had seen thee framed, but yet for me Scant beauty dwells in what all men may have: So from the stuffy air of chests and caskets That, like the sandal-wood in sanctuary, Half took my breath, I had all these removed And placed there in thy chamber for thy service, Where something of my mother's presence still-- Forgive me--seems to cling. I thought in this To show and teach thee something ... On some things There are mute symbols deeply stamped, with which The air grows laden in our quiet hours, And fuses something with our consciousness That could not well be said, nor was to be. [Pause.] It hurts me when I see thee thus, benumbed By all these overladen moments, that Scarce walk upright beneath their heavy burden. But let me say, all good things enter in Our souls in quiet unpretentious ways, And not with show and noise. One keeps expecting To see Life suddenly appear somewhere On the horizon, like a new domain, A country yet untrodden. Yet the distance Remains unpeopled; slowly then our eyes Perceive its traces ling'ring here and yonder, And that it compasses, embraces us, And bears us, is in us, and nowhere fails us. The words I say can give thee little pleasure, Too much renunciation rings in them. But not to me, by Heaven! My sweet child, Not like a beggar do I feel before thee, (With a long look at her.) However fair thy youth's consummate glory Envelop thee from top to toe ... thou knowest Not much about my life, thou hast but seen A fragment of its shell, as dimly gleaming In shadows through the op'nings of a hedge. I wish thine eye might pierce the heart of it: As fully as the earth beneath my feet Have I put from me all things low and common. Callst thou that easy, since I now am old? 'Tis true, I've lost some friends by death ere this-- And thou at most thy grandam--many friends, And those that live, where are they scattered now? To them was linked the long forgotten quiver Of nights of youth, those evening hours in which Vague fear with monstrous, sultry happiness Was mingled, and the perfume of young locks With darkling breezes wafted from the stars.

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The glamor of the motley towns and cities, The distant purple haze--that now is gone, Nor could be found, though I should go to seek it; But here within me, when I call, there rises A something, rules my spirit, and I feel As if it might in thee as well-- [He changes his tone.] Knowst thou the day, on which thou needst must dance Before thy father's guests? A smile unfading Dwelt on thy lips, than any string of pearls More fair, and sadder than my mother's smile, Which thou hast ne'er beheld. This is to blame: That smile and dance were interlaced, like wondrous Fingers of dreamlike possibilities. Wouldst thou they ne'er had been, since they're to blame, My wife, that thou art standing here with me?

SOBEIDE (in such a tone that her voice is heard to strike her teeth). Commandest thou that I should dance? If not, Commandest thou some other thing?

MERCHANT. My wife, How wild thou speakest with me, and how strangely!

SOBEIDE. Wild? Hard, perhaps: my fate is none too soft. Thou speakest as a good man speaks, then be So good as not to speak with me today. I am thy chattel, take me as thy chattel, And let me, like a chattel, keep my thoughts Unspoken, only uttered to myself! [She weeps silently with compressed lips, her face turned toward the darkness.]

MERCHANT. So many tears and in such silence. This Is not the shudder that relieves the anguish Of youth. Here there is deeper pain to quiet Than inborn rigidness of timid spirits.

SOBEIDE. Lord, shouldst thou waken in the night and find Me weeping thus whenas I seem to sleep, Then wake me, lest I do what thy good right Forbids me. For in dreams upon thy bed I shall be seeing then another man And longing for him; this were not becoming, And makes me shudder at myself to think it. Oh promise me that thou wilt then awake me! [Pause. The MERCHANT is silent; deep feeling darkens his face.] No question who it is? Does that not matter? No? But thy face is gloomy and thou breathest With effort? Then I will myself confess it: Thou hast beheld him at our house ere now, His name is Ganem--son of old Shalnassar, The carpet-dealer--and 'tis three years now Since first I knew him. But since yesteryear I have not seen him more. This I have said, this last thing I reveal, Because I will permit no sediment Of secrecy and lies to lurk within me. I care not thou shouldst know: I am no vessel Sold off as pure, but lined with verdigris To eat its bottom out--and then because I wanted to be spared his frequent visits In this abode--for that were hard to bear.

MERCHANT (threateningly, but soon choked by wrath and pain). Thou! Thou hast ... thou hast ... [He claps his hands to his face.]

SOBEIDE. Thou weepest too, then, on thy wedding-day? And have I spoiled some dream for thee? Look hither: Thou sayst, I am so young, and this, and this-- [Points to hair and cheeks.] Are young indeed, but weary is my spirit, So weary, that there is no word to tell How weary and how aged before my time. We are one age, perhaps thou art the younger. In conversation once thou saidst to me, That almost all the years since I was born Had passed for thee in sitting in thy gardens And in the quiet tower thou hast builded, To watch the stars from it. 'Twas on that day It first seemed possible to me, that thy And, more than that, my father's fond desire Might be ... fulfilled. For I supposed the air In this thy house must have some lightness in it, So light, so burdenless!--And in our house It was so overladen with remembrance, The airy corpse of sleepless nights went floating All through it, and on all the walls there hung The burden of those fondly cherished hopes, Once vivid, then rejected, long since faded. The glances of my parents rested ever Upon me, and their whole existence.--Well, Too well I knew each quiver of an eyelash, And over all there was the constant pressure Of thy commanding will, that on my soul Lay like a coverlet of heavy sleep. 'Twas common, that I yielded at the last: I seek no other word. And yet the common Is strong, and all our life is full of it. How could I thrust it down and trample on it, While I was floundering in it up to the neck?

MERCHANT. So my desire lay like a cruel nightmare Upon thy breast! Then thou must surely hate me ...

SOBEIDE. I hate thee not, I have not learned to hate, And only just began to learn to love. The lessons stopped, but I am fairly able To do such things as, with that smile thou knowest, To dance, with heart as heavy as the stones, To face each heavy day, each coming evil With smiles: the utmost power of my youth That smile consumed, but to the bitter end I wore it, and so here I stand with thee.

MERCHANT. In this I see but shadowy connection.

SOBEIDE. How I connect my being forced to smile And finally becoming wife to thee? Wilt thou know this? And must I tell thee all? Then knowst thou, since thou art rich, so little Of life, and hast no eyes for aught but stars, And flowers in thy heated greenhouse? Listen: This is the cause: a poor man is my father, Not always poor, much worse: once rich, now poor, And many people's debtor, most of all Thy debtor. And his starving spirit lived Upon my smile, as other people's hearts On other lies. These last years, since thou camest, I knew my task; till then had been my schooling.

MERCHANT. And so became my wife! As quick she would have grasped her pointed shears And opened up a vein and with her blood Have let her life run out into a bath, If that had been the price with which to purchase Her father's freedom from his creditor! ... Thus is a wish fulfilled!

SOBEIDE. Be not distressed. This is the way of life. I am myself as in a waking dream. As one who, taken sick, no more aright Compares his thoughts, nor any more remembers How on the day before he viewed a matter, Nor what he then had feared or had expected: He cannot look with eyes of yesterday ... So also when we reach the worser stages Of that great illness: Life. I scarcely know Myself how great my fear of many things, How much I longed for others, and I feel, When some things cross my mind, as if it were Another woman's fate, and not my own, Just some one that I know about, not I. I tell thee, I am bitter, but not evil: And if at first I was too wild for thee, There will be no deception in me later, When I shall sit at ease and watch thy gardeners. My head is tired out. I grow so dizzy, When I must keep two things within myself That fight against each other. Much too long Have I been forced to do this. Give me peace! Thou giv'st me this, and for that I am grateful. Call not this little: terrible in weakness Is everything that grows on shifting sands Of doubt. But here is perfect certainty.

MERCHANT. And how of him?

SOBEIDE. That too must not distress thee. 'Twere hard to judge, had I concealed it from thee; I have revealed it now, so let it rest.

MERCHANT. Thou art not free of him!

SOBEIDE. So thinkest thou? When is one "free?" Things have no hold on us, Except we have in us the will to hold them. All that is past. [Gesture.]

MERCHANT (after a pause). His love was like to thine? [SOBEIDE nods.] But then, why then, how has it come to pass That he was not the one--

SOBEIDE Why, we were poor! No, more than poor, thou knowst. His father, too. Poor too. Besides, a gloomy man, as hard As mine was all too soft, and on him weighing As mine on me. The whole much easier To live through than to put in words. For years It lasted. We were children when it started, Ere long as tired as foals, too early harnessed For drawing heavy wagons in the harvest.

MERCHANT. But let me tell thee, this cannot be true About his father. I know old Shalnassar, The carpet-dealer. Well, he is a graybeard, And he who will may speak good of his name, But I will not. A wicked, bad old man!

SOBEIDE. May be, all one. To him it is his father. I ne'er have seen him. Ganem sees him so. He calls him sick, is saddened when he speaks Of him. And therefore I have never seen him, That is, not since my childhood, when I saw Him now and then upon the window leaning.

MERCHANT. But he's not poor, no, anything but poor!

SOBEIDE (sure of her facts, sadly smiling). Thinkst thou I should be here?

MERCHANT. And he?

SOBEIDE. What, he?

MERCHANT. He clearly made thee feel He thought impossible, what he and thou Had wished for years and long held possible?

SOBEIDE. Why, for it was impossible? ... and then "Had wished for years"--thou seest, all these matters Are different, and the words we use Are different. At one time this has ripened, But to decay again. For there are moments With cheeks that burn like the eternal suns-- When somewhere hovers mute an unconfessed Confession, somewhere vanishes in air The echo of a call that never reached Its utterance; here in me something whispers, "I yielded to him;" mark: in thought! "I yielded"-- The following moment swallows everything, As night the lightning flash ... How all began And ended? Well, in this wise: first I sealed My lips, soon then set seal upon my eye-lids, And he--

MERCHANT. Well, how was he?

SOBEIDE. Why, very noble. As one who seeks to sully his own image In other eyes, to spare that other pain-- Quite different, no longer kind as once --It was the greatest kindness, so to act-- His spirit rent and full of mockery, that Perhaps was bitterer to himself than me, Just like an actor oftentimes, so strangely With set intent. At other times again Discoursing of the future, of the time When I should give my hand--

MERCHANT (vehemently). To me?

SOBEIDE (coldly). When I should give my hand to any other;-- Describing what he knew that I should never Endure, if life should ever take that form. As little as himself would e'er have borne it A single hour, for he but made a show, Acquaint with me, and knowing it would cost The less of pain to wrench my heart from him, So soon as I had come to doubt his faith.

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'Twas too well acted, but what wealth of goodness Was there.

MERCHANT. The greatest goodness, _if_ 'twas really Naught but a pose assumed.

SOBEIDE (passionately). I beg thee, husband, This one thing: ruin not our life together. As yet 'tis young and blind as tiny fledglings, A single speech like this might swiftly slay it! I shall not be an evil wife to thee: I mean that slowly I shall find, perhaps, In other things a little of that bliss For which I held out eager fingers, thinking There was a land quite full of it, both air And earth, and one might enter into it. I know by now that _I_ was not to enter ... I shall be almost happy in that day, All longing, painless, shared 'twixt past and present, Like shining sunlight on the fresh green trees, And like an unburdened sky behind the garden The future: empty, yet quite full of light ... But we must give it time to grow: As yet confusion everywhere prevails. Thou must assist me, it must never happen That with ill-chosen words thou link this present Too strongly to the life which now is over. They must be parted by a wall of glass, As airtight and as rigid as in dreams. (At the window.) That evening must not come, that should discover Me sitting at this window without thee: --Just not to be at home, not from the window Of my long girlhood's chamber to look out Into the darkness, has a dangerous, Peculiar and confusing power, as if I lay upon the open road, no man's possession, As fully mine as never in my dreams! A maiden's life is much more strictly ruled By pressure of the air, than thou conceivest, To whom it seems most natural to be free. The evening ne'er must come, when I should thus Stand here, with all the weight of heavy shadows, My parents' eyes, all, all behind me thrust, Involved in yon dark hangings at my back, And this brave landscape with the golden stars, The gentle breeze, the bushes, thus before me. (With growing agitation.) The evening ne'er must come, when I should see All this with eyes like these, to say to me: Here lies a road that shimmers in the moonlight: Before the gentle breeze the next light cloudlet Impels to meet the moon, a man could run That road unto its end, between the hedges, Then comes a cross-road, now a planted field, And then the shadow of the standing corn, At last a garden! There his hand would touch At once a curtain, back of which is all: All kissing, laughing, all the happiness This world can give promiscuously flung About like balls of golden wool, such bliss That but a drop of it on parched lips Suffices to be lighter than a flame, To see no more of difficulty, nor To understand what men call ugliness! (Almost shrieking.) The evening ne'er must come, that with a thousand Unfettered tongues should cry to me: why not? Why hast thou never run in dark of night That road? Thy feet were young, thy breath sufficient: Why hast thou saved it, that thou mightst have plenty To weep a thousand nights upon thy pillow? [She turns her back to the window, clutches the table, collapses and falls to her knees, and remains thus, her face pressed to the table, her body shaken with weeping. A long pause.]

MERCHANT. And if the first door I should open wide, The only locked one on this road of love? [He opens the small doorway leading into the garden on the right; the moonlight enters.]

SOBEIDE (still kneeling by the table). Art thou so cruel as, in this first hour, To make a silly pastime of my weeping! Art thou so fain to put thy scorn upon me? Art thou so proud of holding me securely?

MERCHANT (with the utmost self-control). How much I could have wished that thou hadst learned To know me otherwise, but now there is No time for that. Thy father, if 'tis this which so constrains thee, Thy father owes me nothing now, indeed Within some days agreements have been made Between us twain, from which some little profit And so, I hope, a much belated gleam Of joyousness may come.

[She has crept closer to him on her knees, listening.]

So then thou mightest-- Thou mayst, I mean to say, if it was this That lamed thee most, if in this--_alien_ dwelling Again thou feel the will to live, which thou Hadst lost, if, as from heavy sleep aroused, Yet not awake, thou feel it is this portal That leads thee out to pulsing, waking life-- Then in the name of God and of the stars I give thee leave to go where'er thou wilt.

SOBEIDE (still on her knees). What?

MERCHANT. I do no more regard thee as my wife Than any other maid who, for protection From tempest or from robbers by the wayside, Had entered for a space into my house, And I renounce herewith my claim upon thee, Just as I have no valid right to any, Whom such a chance might cast beneath my roof.

SOBEIDE. What sayest thou?

MERCHANT. I say that thou art free To pass out through this door, and where thou wilt. Free as the wind, the butterfly, the water.

SOBEIDE (half standing). To go?

MERCHANT. To go.

SOBEIDE. Where'er I will?

MERCHANT. Where 'er

Thou wilt, and at what time thou wilt.

SOBEIDE (still half dazed, now at the door). Now? Here?

MERCHANT. Or now, or later. Here, or otherwhere.

SOBEIDE (doubtfully). But to my parents only?

MERCHANT (in a more decided tone). Where thou wilt.

SOBEIDE (laughing and Weeping at once). This dost thou then? O never in a dream I ventured such a thought, in maddest dreams I ne'er had crept to thee upon my knees

[She falls on her knees before him.]

With this request, lest I should see thy laughter Upon such madness ... yet thou doest it, Thou doest it! O thou! Thou good, good man!

[He raises her gently, she stands bewildered.]

MERCHANT (turns away). When wilt thou go?

SOBEIDE. This very instant, now! O be not angry, think not ill of me! Consider: can I tarry in thy house, A stranger's house this night? Must I not go At once to him, since I belong to him? How may his property this night inhabit An alien house, as it were masterless?

MERCHANT (bitterly). Already his?

SOBEIDE. Why sir, a proper woman Is never masterless: for from her father Her husband takes her, she belongs to him, Be he alive or resting in the earth. Her next and latest master--that is Death.

MERCHANT. Then wilt thou not, at least till break of day, Return to rest at home?

SOBEIDE. No, no, my friend. All that is past. My road, once and for all, Is not the common one, this hour divides Me altogether from all maiden ways. So let me walk it to its very end In this one night, that in a later day All this be like a dream, nor I have need To feel ashamed.

MERCHANT. Then go!

SOBEIDE. I give thee pain?

[MERCHANT turns away.]

Permit a single draught from yonder goblet.

MERCHANT. It was my mother's, take it to thyself.

SOBEIDE. I cannot. Lord. But let me drink from it.

[Drinks.]

MERCHANT. Drain this, and never mayst thou need in life To quench thy thirst with wine from any goblet Less pure than that.

SOBEIDE. Farewell.

MERCHANT. Farewell.

[She is already on the threshold.]

Hast thou no fear? Thou never yet hast walked Alone. We dwell without the city wall.

SOBEIDE. Dear friend, I feel above all weakling fear, And light my foot, as never in the daytime.

[Exit.]

MERCHANT (after following her long with his eyes, with a gesture of pain). As if some plant were drawing quiet rootlets From out my heart, to take wing after her, And air were entering all the empty sockets!

[He steps away from the window.]

Does she not really seem to me less fair, So hasty, so desirous to run thither, Where scarce she knows if any wait her coming! No: 'tis her youth that I must see aright; This is a part of all things beautiful, And all this haste becomes this creature just As mute aspects become the fairest flowers.

[Pause.]

I think what I have done is of a part With my conception of the world's great movement. I will not have one set of lofty thoughts When I behold high up the circling stars, And others when a young girl stands before me. What _there_ is truth, must be so here as well, And I must say, if yonder wedded child Cannot endure to harbor in her spirit Two things, of which the one belies the other, Am I prepared to make my acts deny What I have learned through groping premonition And reason from that monstrous principle That towers upon the earth and strikes the stars? I call it Life, that monstrous thing, this too Is life--and who might venture to divide them? And what is ripeness, if not recognizing That men and stars have but one law to guide them? And so herein I see the hand of fate, That bids me live as lonely as before, And heirless--when I speak the last good-by-- And with no loving hand in mine, to die.