# My past and thoughts, vol. 4 (of 6)

Author: Herzen, Aleksandr, 1812-1870; Garnett, Constance, 1861-1946 [Translator]

Genre: Authors, Russian -- Biography

Language: English

License: Public domain

Source: https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/78360

Amazon editions: https://www.amazon.com/s?k=My+past+and+thoughts%2C+vol.+4+%28of+6%29+Herzen&tag=cyberlibrar00-20

## Summary

‘To understand so much’ (Natalie wrote to Ogaryov at the end of 1846) ‘and not to have the strength to deal with it—not to have the fortitude to accept bitter and sweet alike, but to stop short at the first—it is pitiful! And I understand all that as well as possible, and yet I cannot arrive at enjoying myself or even being indulgent. I understand what is good outside myself, I do it justice—but only what is gloomy is reflected in my soul and torments me. Give me your hand and say with me that nothing satisfies you, that there is nothing you are content with, and then teach me to rejoice, to be gay, to enjoy myself—I have everything to make me happy, if only I could develop the faculty.’...

## Chapters

- [CHAPTER V:—Golovin _page 301](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/4/index.md)
- [Chapter 4](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/9/index.md)
- [Chapter 5](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/10/index.md)
- [Chapter 3](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/8/index.md)
- [chapter I have spoken of my meeting with him in the West India Docks on](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/7/index.md)
- [Chapter 1](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/5/index.md)
- [Chapter 2](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/6/index.md)
- [VOLUME IV](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/1/index.md)
- [CHAPTER IV:—I. POLISH REFUGEES: Aloysius Bernacki—Stanislaw](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/3/index.md)
- [CHAPTER III:—I. The Exiles in London—The Germans and the](https://www.cyberlibrary.org/en/books/my-past-and-thoughts-vol-4-of-6-78360/chapters/2/index.md)