Part 7
A few days later she met Tom again, this time she was more at her ease. They were young, lonely, and the spring helped thaw the superficial crust of convention.
It was after they had seen each other several times that Tom confided to Donelle his feeling about roads.
"They're like friends," he said, blushing and laughing.
"A road doesn't mean anything to me," Donelle replied, "but something to walk or ride on, something that gets you somewhere."
"Yes, it does get you somewhere, but you don't always have to ride or walk on it. If you think about it, it gets you somewhere," said Tom.
Donelle paused to whistle Nick back, the dog was after something in the bushes.
"You're very queer," she said at last eyeing Tom furtively. "Now I think about dogs and cats and birds as real, but I never thought about a road being real."
Donelle was looking at the ground as if it were something alive upon which she had stepped inadvertently.
"Tell me more about roads," she said.
"There isn't much, I've never told any one before--they would laugh."
"I will not laugh." And indeed Donelle was very serious.
"It began when I was a little chap. I didn't have much to play with and a boy has to have something. I used to wonder where the road went and when I was only five I got to the top of the hill and looked beyond. My father walloped me for running away. I wasn't really running away, but of course he wouldn't have understood, and my mother was frightened. I didn't go again for a long time. I was always a bit of a coward and I remembered the whipping."
"I don't believe you are a coward, Tom Gavot."
"I am, a little. You see, I hate to be hurt, I sort of--dread it, but once I make the start, I forget and go on like everyone else."
"I think that's being braver than most people. If you are afraid and still do things, that's not cowardly." Donelle spoke loyally and Tom gave her a long side glance of gratitude.
The spring was in Tom's blood, this lately-come friend was developing him rapidly.
"Well, anyway, by the time I was seven I managed the hill again. From that time on I went every day. I think there must be a dent in a rock where I used to sit, playing with the road."
"Playing with the road! Playing with the road!" Donelle repeated. "Oh! but you are queer. What did you play, Tom Gavot?"
"Oh! I sent people up and down it. The people I did not like I sent down and never let them come back."
"That is perfectly lovely. Go on, Tom."
"And then I made up my mind that when I was big enough I'd run away with my mother. I always meant to explain to her about the road, but I didn't. Sometimes I fancied that people would come over the road bringing to me the things I wanted."
"What things, Tom?"
"Oh! all sorts of things that boys want and don't get. After I grew older and Father Mantelle began to teach me, I still felt as if the road was a friend, but I did not play with it any more. Then one summer some surveyors and engineers came and one man, he was a great sort, let me talk to him and he made me think about roads in quite another way. I tell you, my road had got pretty rutty, so I began filling in the holes. It was the only decent thing I could do when I'd used it so; and besides it kept me near the men and they helped me to know things that I really wanted."
"What, Tom Gavot?"
"Why, I want to learn how to make roads. When I can, I am going away and I'm not coming back until I can do more than fill in holes."
"I shall miss you dreadfully when you go!" said Donelle. It all seemed imminent and real to her now. "Of course you must go, but--well, the road will be pretty lonely until you come back." Then the girl looked up.
"I sort of feel," she said whimsically, "that I ought to be the right kind--of a girl to walk on your road, Tom Gavot."
"Well, you are."
"No, I haven't told Mamsey that I know you. I've come with Nick when Mamsey was off on the farm. She thinks I'm spinning or weaving, but I hurry through and get out. I've hoped that someone would tell her, but they haven't."
"Would she mind if she knew?" asked Tom, and his dark face reddened.
"I don't know, but I think I must _think_ she would or I would have told. She and I talk of everything right out; everything but you."
For a moment the two walked on in silence. Then Tom spoke.
"You'd better tell her," he said. Then with a brave attempt at cheerfulness: "When I come back, Donelle, all the world can see us walking on the road and it won't matter."
"I'm going to tell Mamsey to-day," murmured Donelle. Somehow she felt as if she had wronged Tom. "This very day."
Gavot looked into her face. He suddenly felt old and detached as if he had got a long way ahead of her on the road.
"Your eyes are a strange colour," he said, "they look as if there was a light behind them shining through."
They both laughed at that, and then Donelle whistled Nick to her and turned.
"I'm going to tell Mamsey," she said, "good bye."
Tom looked after her and his eyes grew hard and lonely.
"Good-bye," he repeated. "Good-bye," but the girl was out of sight.
That afternoon she told Jo, but she advanced toward her confession by so indirect a route that she mislead Mam'selle.
"I wish you'd tell me about Tom Gavot," she said.
"Why? What does Tom matter? Poor lad, he's got a beast of a father."
"Was his mother a beast?"
"No. She was a sad, hunted soul."
"It is too bad she died, if she had waited Tom would have taken her on his road."
Jo looked up from her sewing.
"What are you talking about?" she asked.
"Tom Gavot. He used to play with the road and now he mends it. Some day he's going to make roads. They'll be splendid roads, I'm sure, and----"
"What do you know of Tom Gavot, Donelle?"
Jo started as she had when Donelle had told her of Dan Kelly.
"Mamsey, don't be angry, I know I should have told you. I don't know why I didn't, but while you were away I hurried and got through my work and then I was so lonely. I went out on the road--Nick and I, and I found Tom Gavot."
"You've seen him--often?"
And now Jo's eyes were stern and frightened.
"Why, yes, I suppose so. I didn't count. It seems as if I had always known him. He's wonderful. Besides knowing about roads, he knows books, all kinds. Father Mantelle teaches him. I'd like to go, too, and learn from Father Mantelle."
"Well, you'll not study with Tom Gavot!" Jo was perplexed. She decided to go the very next day to the priest.
"Why not, Mamsey?"
"One sort of learning for girls; another for boys." Jo snapped her thread.
"I wonder why, Mamsey! They both travel the same road."
The word made Jo nervous.
"No, they do not!" she said sharply.
"Well, I shall. You can choose your road, can't you, Mamsey? I mean the sort of things you learn?"
"No."
"It's all wrong then."
"Stop asking stupid questions, child, about things you do not know," Jo broke in.
"But that's why I ask questions, because I don't know. Are they stupid?"
"Yes, very. Now come, Donelle, and help me get supper."
It was mid-afternoon of the next day when Jo started for Father Mantelle's. Her errand was a very simple one: she wanted the old man to teach Donelle. Not while he was instructing Tom Gavot, however!
As she walked along the muddy road, picking her way as she could, Jo was thinking of how much or how little she should tell of her relations with Donelle. She had grown to accept what she felt people believed and it no longer caused her indignation; there were graver problems. But the incident that Donelle had related of her conversation with Dan Kelly had thoroughly aroused her. Her consciousness of injustice could not save her from the shock of the brutal meaning of Dan's attitude.
"They'll get to think the girl's common property if I don't set her above their reach," muttered Jo, and then wondered whether it would be safer to lay the truth bare to Father Mantelle. Would it be safer for Donelle to come forth in her true character, as the daughter of a supposed murderer, or to remain as she was, the supposed love-child of a deserted woman? For herself Jo Morey took little heed; the self-respect that had always upheld her came to her support now. Had Donelle been hers, she believed her inheritance would have been better than that which was rightfully hers from her real mother.
"A minister's words can't make or mar these things," she muttered, "and since my blood doesn't flow in the girl's veins, my common sense can save her, God helping me!"
As she plodded on poor Jo thought of Langley himself. She had never believed the accusation brought against him. She could not, but what proof had she to support her belief? And somewhere, in the world, possibly, that man was still alive who had brought forth the charge. Might he not at this late day materialize and menace Donelle were she, Jo, to let the full light of truth on her?
What reason was there for that strange man to want to get possession of Langley's child? Was he afraid of her? Did he want to silence her, or--and here poor Jo stopped in the road and breathed hard--had he believed that Donelle was his?
For a moment Jo grew dizzy. Suppose he did think so. How could she prove the contrary? Would her insistence as to resemblance or her innate belief in her love going true, weigh against any proof which that unknown man might have?
Less and less did Jo believe that Donelle would ever recall the past. And if she did, what would it avail?
"I think I will have to let the poor child stagger along with me tacked to her past," she concluded, "her chances for safety are better, though she may never know it. I may be able to keep her from hearing, people do forget, and my money and her learning may help." Jo sighed and trudged on.
The relations between Father Mantelle and Mam'selle were very peculiar. The old priest admired her intelligence and was amused by her keen wit and independence. He simply could not account for her and that added to his interest. He had not been in Point of Pines long, he rarely left it, and never had company unless a passing father stopped for refreshment or a report. In short, Mantelle was as much a mystery as Mam'selle, and for that very reason they unconsciously respected each other.
They never discussed religion, but Mantelle's attitude toward Jo had been always one of esteem and neighbourliness.
"In loneliness the poor soul has worked out her own redemption," Mantelle had decided. At first he had pondered upon Mam'selle's loneliness, but had never questioned it, having much sympathy for any one who, for any reason, could not mingle freely with his fellows.
When Jo entered the priest's house his servant, an old Indian woman, showed her to a rear room in which she had never been before.
It surprised Jo by its comfort and even luxury. Books lined the walls, rugs covered the rude board flooring; there were comfortable chairs, broad tables, and a clear fire burning on the spotless hearth.
The old man sat before the fire, and as he looked up and saw Jo his delicate face flushed. Something in his manner caught her attention at once. Subtle as it was, she was keenly sensitive of it.
"He's heard!" thought Jo, and stiffened.
Father Mantelle had heard and he thought, he certainly hoped, that the erring daughter had come to confess. It was not in the church, but that did not matter; more was dragged out of heavily-burdened souls in that comfortable room than was ever got in the small church on the hill.
The priest meant to be very kind, very tolerant; he knew the world outside Point of Pines and was extremely human when men and women deserved his kindness. But until they were brought to the proper state of mind, mercy must be withheld, and this disclosure of Jo's past had shaken him tremendously. Certainly whatever he had thought about her, he had not thought this! He felt that he, in his office and character, had been grossly deceived. He had been permitted to associate on equal terms with a woman outside the pale. It was outrageous.
Something intangible, but strangely like Dan Kelly's manner toward Donelle, marked Mantelle's attitude at the present moment. A half-concealed familiarity, an assumption of authority.
"Well, well, you have come, daughter," he said, and pointed Jo to the chair across the hearth. He thought Jo had been driven to him in her extremity, he had never addressed her as "daughter" before.
"Father," Jo began bluntly, "I've come to ask your help with this young girl I've adopted."
The priest thought Mam'selle hard. Indeed Longville had told him, in strict privacy, that she was hard and defiant. For the good of her own soul and the soul of other women likely to defy the laws of God and man, she must be brought to a repentant state. Now that he understood conditions, Mantelle was prepared to reduce Jo to that desirable state. He smiled kindly, blandly; he was a bit daunted but he realized that, erring as Mam'selle was, she was no ordinary woman.
He kindly led her on.
"Though you have seen your duty late, daughter," he said gently, "there is still time to strive for the child's best good."
Then Jo told him quite concisely of her desires for Donelle.
"I want to have her learn all that you can teach her, Father," she said, "and after that--well, I have no plans, but my money and life will be devoted to the girl."
There was a suspicion of defiance and bitterness in Mam'selle's tone.
Now Mantelle had only seen Jo's adopted daughter at a distance. Having no authority over the parish of St. Michael's he had not connected the girl's past with the institution there. He had asked Longville whence Mam'selle Morey had brought the girl, but as Longville did not know, he had let the matter drop as non-essential, but it puzzled him.
"You think it wise to keep the child in Point of Pines?" he asked. "You think it for her good, after all these years, to--to bring the unfortunate past to the--the surface?"
"Yes," Jo answered and her lips drew close. She was thinking of Dan Kelly, but she believed Father Mantelle and she could outwit him.
"My daughter, do you think this would be fair to the girl?"
"Why not?"
"Is it right, or just, that she should suffer for the wrong of a--another?"
"No, it is not right." Jo said this as a general truth.
"But you think your money can buy favour? Mam'selle, you are wrong. There are some things money, not even years of blameless life, can buy.
"Your people, I am sure, have treated you kindly, compassionately, and they will continue to do so, if you show the proper spirit. But you must not, daughter, think that gold can wipe away the result of defiance to the laws of God and man. You must be repentant, prove that you have the best interests of this girl at heart, and then, then only can the future be secure."
The thin, delicate face was pale and stern, the deep eyes burned. Not only the sanctity of Mantelle's authority, but his position among men was being questioned by the woman before him. And Jo was defiant, there was no doubt about that.
"Your kind heart, daughter, has betrayed you into error. Before bringing this child here you should have consulted me. Much might have been saved for us all."
"What would you have advised?" Mam'selle dropped her eyes and the forbidding brows seemed to hide every kindly expression of her face.
"I should have strongly advised against letting the innocent suffer for the guilty!" Mantelle's voice was stern.
"Yes, but she had to have a home; care, the best possible."
"To give that, daughter, is not in your power. In violating the most sacred emotions of life, in spurning the very safeguards of society, you put yourself outside the pale, as far as the child's best good is concerned. Women should fully understand this before they take the fatal step. The price must be paid! If, by assuming your duty at this late day you could condone the past, I would help you, but I cannot advise keeping this girl here. For her truest good, she should be saved, where only such unfortunates can be saved."
"And that is?" Mam'selle's voice was slow and even.
"In the bosom of the church, daughter. Send the child to St. Michael's; let them train her there for a life of devotion and service in a field where temptation, inherited weakness----"
Mantelle got no further for Jo--laughed!
The priest rose in his chair, white with anger.
"You laugh?" he said as if his hearing had betrayed him.
"Forgive me, Father, but it struck me as being rather hard on the girl that, for a wrong she never committed, she should be condemned to--to exile; not even given a chance of her own."
"You stole that from her, daughter!"
"I? Why, how could I? And is the Church able to accept whatever service, my--this young girl might give, while the world is unable to do so?"
"It can."
Then Mam'selle stood up. Her patient, work-worn hands were folded before her, she raised her deep, sad eyes.
"Father," she said calmly, "you feel that you have a right to assume this attitude toward me, without even hearing my side? My life, as you know it, has done nothing to save me from this--this mistake of yours. You have taken my money, what help I could give, and I believed that you were my friend."
"I am; your real and only friend." Mantelle was deceived by the tone and words.
"You have shown me that a man cannot be a friend to a woman! He cannot give her justice."
"You are not speaking to a man, daughter!"
The desire to laugh again consumed Jo, but she mastered it.
"In that capacity alone did I regard you, Father Mantelle, and you have failed me. For the rest, I let no one stand between my conscience and my God! No. If I ask help again it will be from a woman; she at least can understand."
"A woman is hardest upon women in such cases as yours, Mam'selle!"
Jo was thankful that at last the priest had dropped the objectionable "daughter."
"She will be the first who will turn against you."
"And was it a woman who came to you, Father, with my--my trouble?"
Mantelle's face flushed and Jo shook her head sadly.
"I see it was not. So the first and second who have turned against me have been men. Good day, Father, and"--Mam'selle stopped at the door--"if you ever need help in giving that poor Tom Gavot his chance, I stand ready to do what I have always promised to do, and I do it for the sake of his mother."
Condemnation and contempt rang in Jo's voice. It was her last arrow and it sank home.
The priest was practical and having done his Christian duty he could afford to be human.
"It speaks well for your good sense, Mam'selle," he said; "that you do not utterly shut yourself away from your people." Then Mantelle paused, "Mam'selle!" he said.
"Yes, Father." Jo turned and lifted her deep eyes to his face.
"I wonder if you _have_ something to tell me that I should know in justice to you?"
"You should have thought of that first, Father. It is too late now."
"We may"--the man's recent manner fell from him like an unnecessary garment--"be friends, still?"
Again Jo laughed. She felt that she had by some kindly power regained something of her lost position with this lonely old man. Since he could not understand her, save her, he was willing to accept her.
"Father, I have too few friends to cast them off heedlessly."
And then she went out, more of a mystery than ever to Mantelle.
*CHAPTER IX*
*WOMAN AND WOMAN*
It was early June when Mam'selle heard that the Walled House, the country place of some rich people from the States, was to be opened.
It had been closed for many years, but recently the master had died and his wife, with a staff of servants and an old, blind, white-haired man, had returned.
The moment Jo heard that, her spirits rose. Here was a most unlooked-for opportunity for advice and, perhaps, assistance.
The Lindsays of the Walled House had always mingled freely with their neighbours; Mr. Lindsay was a Canadian. Jo, in her earlier days, had often served them; had sold her linens and wools to them at, what seemed to her, fabulous prices. Mrs. Lindsay, having taken a fancy to Mam'selle, often tried to annex her to her establishment, but to that the independent Jo would not consent.
"Well, Mam'selle," Alice Lindsay had said during the last interview they had had, "if I ever can help you, please let me."
"I'll go to her now!" decided Mam'selle.
A week later, dressed in her absurd best, she made the journey in her caliche. Her days of sitting on the shaft by Molly, her economies in clothes, were over, she was living up to her ambitions for Donelle and her defiance of Point of Pines' morality. Outwardly, Jo was fairly awe-inspiring and even Dan Kelly was impressed; inwardly, Jo was a good deal chastened by her visit to Father Mantelle.
There were doubts now in her heart as to the role she had assumed for Donelle's sake. Perhaps it would be better to let the girl shoulder her father's possible crime and her foolish mother's wrongdoing, rather than the disguise which Jo had self-sacrificingly wrought for her.
And yet, even now she could not bring herself to lay the dead Langley open to a charge she did not believe, but could not disprove, and the girl, herself, to danger. And so as she drove to the Walled House she was very quiet, very subdued, but her faith was strong. She meant to give as much as she dared of the past to the woman whose sympathies and assistance she was about to interest. She was ready to put all her future wools and linens at Mrs. Lindsay's disposal in return for any help she could obtain for the betterment of Donelle. Poor Jo was ready to abdicate, if that were best. After her months of happiness with the girl, after living in the dear companionship and love of the sunny young nature, she was willing to stand aside for the girl's future good.
"She shall not be condemned to death!" Jo snorted, and Molly reared. "St. Michael's shall not get her. But there must be a place for her, and I love her well enough to get out of her way. I only took her for the best, her best, and if I cannot keep her, I can let her go!"
Jo found Mrs. Lindsay on the beautiful shaded porch, found her changed, but none the less lovely and kindly.
"Why, it is the dear Mam'selle of the wonderful linens!" Alice Lindsay cried, stretching out her slim hands in welcome. "I have been thinking of you. How glad I am to see you. You have heard?" Mrs. Lindsay looked down at the thin black gown she wore.
"I have heard," Jo said and her throat grew dry.
"I--I have come back because my husband seems more here than anywhere, now. He loved the Walled House so much; he loved his Canada, Mam'selle."
Jo was thinking of two bleak, lonely weeks in her own past when she had stolen away and gone to Langley's deserted cabin because he, _the he_ that she had known and loved--seemed more there than anywhere else. She had buried her hatred and bitterness toward him there. She knew it, now, as she had never known it before. The two women were drawing close by currents of sympathy.
They had tea together, they talked of future linens and wools, and then Jo told her story, taking small heed of the impression she was giving. She was blindly thinking only of Donelle, and Mrs. Lindsay did not hurt her by question or voiced doubt.
That night, when a great silence reigned over the Walled House, broken only by the soft, tender tones of a violin played at a distance in the moonlit garden, Alice Lindsay wrote a long letter to Anderson Law, her father's oldest friend, her own faithful advisor and closest confidant.
Law was an artist and critic. Old Testy he was called by those whom he often saved from the folly of their false ambitions; The Final Test, by those who came humbly, tremblingly, faithfully to him with their great hopes. To a few he was Man-Andy, the name that Alice Lindsay had given to him when she was a little child.